The curse of a Perfectionist
As an INFJ, starting a project that you want to share with the world can be rough sometimes. Don’t get me wrong we love to start new projects, especially if it’s something we really want to do and are passionate about. But at the same time we postpone the starting point because we’re scared it won’t be perfect. We have the need to review multiple times all the details, afraid that if we don’t, we’re going to miss something important and people will judge us. This is why most of the time an INFJ can be a private person and often avoids talking about their feelings, but that’s a story for another day…
This is just the introduction for my new project, so here is my story.
Since I was a little kid, I’ve always been better with words. It’s like I can express myself better when I write. Whenever I’m talking, I just start to ramble at some point and lose my train of thought. At the same time, being an INFJ means that I’m a person who likes to talk about my self discoveries with others. Nonetheless, this can be hard too because we don’t trust everyone (even our closest friends don’t know many details about who we are) and because when we talk about how we feel, it seems that no one truly understands us.
All this perfectionism is both a blessing and a curse. On one hand, thinking about every single detail allows me to be prepared and think about all the possibilities that can happen in the future (either with a project or with an important decision). On the other hand, this can also be a curse because if something is not perfect, I’ll just be stuck in an overthinking loop. And it’s very hard to breake this negative pattern.
So this is why I decided that I wanted to share my thoughts about anything that comes to my mind with strangers. You’re probably guessing right if you’re thinking it took me a few weeks to start writing this draft. My perfectionism really stops me from being spontaneous and just go with the flow sometimes. But here I am, trying to write how I feel, as a means to start this new stage and hoping I can get to some of your hearts.
This is the start of a new chapter! I’m going to write about any topic that comes to my mind, depending on my everyday mood. I hope you all enjoy it 🙂
